*sighhhhh what should i doooo .. i'm too lazy to write in my diary.. but yeaa i feelll rejected lol.. but at the same time.. i don't really feel that hurt .. but yeaa anyways just confused overall about feelings.. -___-" i shouldn't think so much about these kind of things when i should be concentrating on school.. but i can't help it .. i think korean and taiwanese dramas that i've watched have influenced the way i think about life .. soroush is right.. don't be so EMOooo lol .. i guess girls really do think too much at times.. and put too much thought and emotion into small things ><".. but yeaa.. if my life was really like those dramas, it would be the sad/confused girl part -_-".. anyhow..

today at york, there was a fortune teller who was sitting at a table with a sign "3 free questions".. lol soo i went over to ask him three questions.. i asked first about my relationships.. and he said that there will be toys for me to play around wtih.. but my serious relationship will come later on in life.. and then i will marry and have three kids lol.. omgg.. the three kids prediction is everywhere -_-" maybe i will have three kids in the future.. then i asked about my future career and he said that i will be working in a large co-orporation -_-".. and said that my path will change (sooo wanting to be a teacher will change i guess..).. yaa and then after i asked about my health.. and he said youll be finee, and said i was cute -_-".. *sigh.. after that.. i kind of stopped believing wat he said .. yeaa...

anyways.. its now 11 30ish... and soroush and i concluded that guys are shit loll..*Sigh i realized that i was really rejected .. and that he was pissed.. or didn't want to answer.. or annoyed wtih me.. or all -_-".. so yeaa.

i still dun understand why guys are like that... keep everything to themselves.. find this and that gay -_-" and are soo vague and sometimes careless about other's feelings ... and try to act all "cool" about things.. its sooooo ahhh drives me nuts...

i think i should start a new chapter in my life now -___-".. and be more like jasmin XD.. actaulyl i can't because i get too into it.. i can't control my crazy feelings -_-" *sigh... but its even more sad when u can't be friends with that special someone T.T" why are guys so cruel at times.. AHH.. anyways. enough about this lol..

k time to sleepp ><" ..

reunion day =)

todayy i met up with most of my friends XD we went to bubble republic together, and the rest - because of seating problems and misunderstanding - went to a noodle resturant within the same plaza ^^" i went to visit them afterwards to chat a bit ^^" but one lady who was working there stood beside me and gave me a look.. the "plz dont stand aroundin our resturant" look -__-" soo then i just left XD anyhow it was great to see everyone again.. it was so crowded at br.. i usually dont see that many people.. i guess other friends are meeting up too hehe.. well so far it seems like most of them didnt change much ^^ they're the same old friends hehe.. even though its only been about 2-3 weeks since we all met up.. it feels like it has been a longgg time since we havent seen each other like months or years.. XD ..well i hope we get to meet up again some time.. cuz i think later we will be a lot busier ><" so yea.. the next time we meet up will probably be either at commencement or durin christmas =D yupyuy.. well i will post pictures another day.. maybe tomorrow..i go sleep now..goodluck everyone =D WORK HARDDD! so then when we ALL graduate we can have a BIG celebration ^^"

note to self: its getting cold.. get gloves and a few scarfs ready =)

Good day ~ (but too much procrastination ^^'')
today i visited school ^^" i'm pretty happy cuz i saw many people =D like my good korean buddies karen, erica and junho XD.. and then i saw people from music and choir too hehe.. but yea i spent most of my time with my korean buddies =D.. first we were in the library just socializing about school life .. and then we got into wanting to go to korea - seoul together XD and junho said he would bring us .. if we met him in our dreams at 2 am at the pearson airport XD omgg it was soo funnyy.. but it was really fun talkin about all the things we could do together.. we're goin to travel in junho's personal $5 airplane hehe.. and then we talked about how junho was goin to buy us clothes, cellphone chains, eat korean raw seafood stuff lol.. and he's getting us new cell phones too XD that are samsang ultra thin, 0.07 mm .. it really got us excited and very happy ><" i'm so glad i have such good friends =) they always make me laugh lol.. i can't wait to see my other friends soon.. like jasmin, yoyo, janice, melisa, zangeetha, panda (is coming this sat. XD), lucy, amy, frank, greg, ming, yatish, eric, allen.. yea my close friends .. hopefully they will come visit soon ^^" yupyup.. anyhow.. i also saw that person... but everytime i see that person.. that person's face is blurry.. cuz that person is usually a distance away and i can't see clearly without my glasses.. i always wonder if that person notices that i'm there.. or cares.. or sees me.. am i invisible? ..or that person notices but doesn't care .. anyhow.. it doesn't matter as much.. cuz i had a great time with my friends =D yupp well its 12 10.. almost goin to korea XD see you there karen and junho!~~ =D

the next step in life..

*sigh.. well my university life has just begun... so far its been quite boring.. lonely..i'm doing okay so far in lectures.. but in one of my tutorials i was very lost.. i felt soo..out of place.. but hopefully i will be able to catch up and start to fit in and be involved with the discussions.. anyways.. yea university life.. just as i expected.. lonely.. boring.. tiring.. READING.. AHH i hate reading... anyways.. i miss all my good friends ><" even though i met a couple of new friends..we're still not close obviously.. so its just not the same.. but hopefully our relationships will build ><".. i hope my friends are doing well in University.. unlike me - . -" .. and my friends who are staying bak a year =D.. yup... lately.. whenever i feel lonely.. or if i'm on the go bus sitting alone or something.. i take my mp3 out and listen to music .. music is like the closests thing i have with me when i'm alone and feeling down ><" now i'm one of those people who listens to their mp3s often now whenever i'm alone - . -" yeaa.. and as i listen to my music.. i always think bak to the fun times.. or daydream of nonsense.. or of someone hurting himself in the head (XD right jasmin? and regina XD).. anyways yea..now whenever i have days off i feel like goin to my old school T . T" for quite a few reasons.. like wantin to see old friends..and see someone in particular..and yea.. the environment is smaller and everyone is in that small building. so it feels more warming or comforting being in there compared to being. in university where everyone is everywhere in different buildings and floors -___-" its so troubling.. but yea.. i might visit tomorrow or friday ><" maybe that will help me get some things off my mind.. i shouldn't be thinking so much anyways.. i should be concentrating on school work anyways.. - . -" but its really hard to.. especially if you watch alot of dramas .. cuz the more you watch.. the more you think of life as one of those dramas.. hoping that some guy will appear in your life.. a handsome..smart.. maybe rich guy that will change your life lol.. just jkin.. but thats usually wat happens in dramas.. its quite exciting XD well must get sleep.. since the kat has woken me up early the past...week lol >< ZZzzzzzzzzZzzz..

Songs I currently like to listen to:

專屬天使 - Tank [current song]
超喜歡你 - 飛輪海
懂了 - Tank
我一直都在 - 林稷安 & 程于伦
傻傻的勇气 - 杨子楱(VENK)
偷偷愛(演奏曲) - 電視原聲帶

-> they're all from a taiwanese drama called Hana Kimi ^^" <-

it's finally summer >.<" and i'm bored -___-" i already went on the 4 day tour to New York, New Jersey, and Washington DC .. it was okay i think it was a bit rushed though -_-' not enough time for shopping ! boo! we only had 2 hours of outlet shopping for the whole 4 days -_-'' ah anyways, hopefully i will see my friends soon =) and go eat or go to wonderland XD or CNE .. there's still lots to do but July is ending soon =( ah not enough time.. and my new life will start soon in University..

lee pye doh mm geehn kue .. T . T" kue hoh lung siew sut joh la..